envelope left behind by a kinder in my class
who created it for someone special.
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‘i have found that if you love life, life will love you back.’
-arthur rubinstein
the notes i scribbled after each walk in the parks
sometimes in a code that even i could not decipher

the artifacts i gathered as i walked the parks
most dried out to the point where i could not recognize them
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i threw all of the the notes and artifacts into a big shoe box
in one heaping pile
things fell out and fell in
i found a purple feather and holiday glitter in the mix
clearly a very complex and organized system.
—
“if you wish to forget anything on the spot,
make a note that this thing is to be remembered.”
-edgar allan poe
my first step in the parks in my first pair of shoes
steps in the parks somewhere in the middle
my last step in the parks in my last pair of shoes
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with all of this stepping into the parks
i thought it was be easy and interesting
to look back and see just how far i had walked
using multiple sources
and multiple attempts
it turned into quite an impossible task
as each park was shaped differently
i had walked in no particular pattern
and converting the 2061.6 total acres into distance
proved to be a bit more complicated than i expected.
s0me of my early rough calculations
(having dinosaurs on the paper seemed fitting)
scenes of me asking the big questions
i went to my daughters
who tried to create an algorithm for me
but they again pointed out that i had no consistent shape of the acreage
nor did a have a consistent path of travel through them
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i then went online to an international group
of physicists, mathmeticians, engineers, etc. to seek their answers
here is a sampling:
can’t convert an area into a distance… If you walked the entire area of the parks so as to pass within 20m of each point, this would be 250 miles at least.
While metric units are usually easier to work with, an acre represents an area of a chain (22yds or 20m) x a furlong (220 yds / 200m) which is 1/8 of a mile. If you were a medieval ploughman, an acre (from the Latin ager = field) would be a strip 22yds wide and 220yds long. But now it’s any shape at all with that area of 4840 sq yds or 1/640 of a square mile.
Best way to work out your distance will be with a gps app. Download the Viewranger app, get it to record your track, then it’ll tell you the exact distance. Other gps apps are available.
There is no way to tell. You tell us areas but not distances, nor do you give us times or velocity.
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i have decided that according to my calculations
my final answer is that i traveled pretty far
during the time i spent covering the 2,061.6 acres
and interesting coincidence
the last park on the list
the last steps i took
were in a park at the top of the very street
where i first lived in ann arbor
in my rattletrap apartment with no money
when i moved here at age 40
having quit my job to go to grad school
and change the course of my life
this long journey with it’s twisty and immeasurable path
had somehow led me straight home.
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‘only those who will risk going too far
can possibly find out how far one can go.’
– t.s. eliott

from july 3rd-october 30th, i spent much of my free time walking the parks in ann arbor. i was initially surprised that there were over 150 parks in the city, but happy to discover the number. and so, with no sense of direction, and no expectations, other than to see what was out there, i wandered into the woods and stumbled into the greenspaces, open to whatever came my way.
some of the things i discovered about the parks –
ann arbor has 152 parks, along with other recreational and activity spaces
not all of the parks were easy to find or to access, information and directions were vague at times – there were many secret entrances. during this adventure, i had to climb though brambles, through backyards, across driveways, park illegally, go over and under fences, across ravines, around hills, between fences, over water, under low trees, and behind school yards.
the parks total over 2,000 acres (more on that tomorrow)
they range in size from the tiniest pocket parks (postman’s rest and depot) to the largest- birdhills (161 acres) and the nichols arboretum (123 acres)
many different people/organizations help to care for them – the university of michigan school of natural resources, the boy and girl scouts, garden clubs, sportsmen’s clubs, land preservation groups, businesses, neighbors, schools, churches, anonymous individuals
they are used for all kinds of celebrations, get togethers, meetings, activities, sports in every season, as well as solitary endeavors
all kinds and ages of people and animals use the parks
there is a lot of water involved – rivers, creeks, streams, lakes
lots of trees, wildflowers, corn, berries, pine cones, apples, orchids, peonies, lilies, mushrooms, thistles, brambles, green spaces, vines, grasses, ravines, hills, fields, marshes, meadows
lots of rocks – from boulders to gravel
play areas of all kinds – for toddlers through adult sports enthusiasts
lots of structures – tree houses, forts, damns, benches, tables, huts, camp sites
lots of animals of every kind
incredible histories and memorials
lots of neighborhood parks – each has at least one park within it
at times i felt like i was in someone’s intimate space, like showing up and sharing their yard with them
other times, i was the only one in a large, incredibly beautiful space, in the middle of the city, or just on the outskirts, but deep in the woods, hidden away and far removed
some of the things i discovered about myself:
i am stronger and have much more stamina than when i began walking
i am apparently bite and injury resistant – never was bitten by any insect, animal, or human, only got scraped after my slide down a hill
i love walking deep in the woods in quiet solitude
it takes me about 40 minutes before i am deep in my zen zone when walking and then i could walk forever
i also love being amidst the wildlife and human activity in the parks at times
i went through 1 and 1/2 pairs of shoes
i discovered interesting lost/abandoned items along the way – mittens, socks, flip flops, shorts, underwear, glasses….
i am now a bit wealthier – (found 28 cents along the way)
i am able to walk in all weather conditions
i still have a horrendous sense of direction but always find my way back home
i found so much more than i ever expected, including an incredible sense of peace, and feel changed in ways that will stay with me forever
each and every park has a story, each one has its own personality, each one has very loyal caretakers, each one is valued by the community, each one is clearly loved by someone.
it was a long, but wonderful journey and when i finally reached the end of the list, it was bittersweet. along the way, i learned much about my city, the people who live here, the spaces within my community, the nature that surrounds me, and even more about myself. thank you to ann arbor for providing such amazing places of beauty for all of us .
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“many a trip continues long after movement in time and space have ceased.”
-john steinbeck
and once again
daylight savings time comes to an end.
for the time being.
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“do not think that time simply flies away. do not understand “flying” as the only function of time. if time simply flew away, a separation would exist between you and time. so if you understand time as only passing, then you do not understand the time being. to grasp this truly, every being that exists in the entire world is linked together as moments in time, and at the same time they exist as individual moments of time. because all moments are the time being, they are your time being.”
― 13th-century Zen master Dogen Zenji, as quoted by ruth ozeki – A Tale for the Time Being
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image credit: david pearson- antique time spiral
today our kinders
learned a beautiful lesson
about a lovely tradition
honoring those who we have loved and lost
and now continue to remember
on this very special holiday each year
and onward.
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“the core belief of the Day of the Dead is so poetic and simple: as long as we remember those who have passed away, as long as we tell their stories, sing their songs, tell their jokes, cook their favorite meals, then they are with us, around us, and in our hearts.
-jorge r. guiterrez
The Art of the Book of Life, Introduction
(Dia de los Muertos – Day of the Dead)
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this post is dedicated to little hazen
forever 5
who left us on this day
much loved
lost much too soon
and always remembered.