Tag Archives: loss

thirty minutes.

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each of our faculty members

were allowed to go into their room alone for 30 minutes

during that time we could take

whatever we imagined we might need

to teach school — for the rest of the year.

walking into my building, it was silent

 i saw the ‘welcome back to the sun’ and ‘happy spring’ artwork

my class had created for the hall

expecting to be back soon after our spring break

walking into my classroom

it was sad

left as it was back in mid-march

memories, things undone, things i wish i could still do with my class

cards, and art, and notes, and pictures, and colors, and books

30 minutes to decide what to take

 i filled my bags with toys and books and art and puppets

 anything i thought might make my kinder feel a sense of comfort

as i teach them from afar and show them familiar things

 it was hard to close the door on the year

 knowing i will stay connected to each of them

but also knowing

something will be lost

in not spending my school days

sharing a room with them.

“time flies over us, 

but leaves its shadow behind. “

-nathaniel hawthorne

all part of one another.

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what a totally unexpected and much appreciated kindness:

 a sympathy card in the mail

signed by every person in my vet’s office

after helping my pet to pass on peacefully

on my last trip there.

“the whole idea of compassion is based on a keen awareness

of the interdependence of all these living beings,

which are all part of one another, and all involved in one another.”

-thomas merton

encore une fois. (once again)

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glenn frey the rocker, (r.i.p.) and the eagles returning for one of many expected encores. 

glenn frey the cat has returned for a very unexpected encore.

his doctor gave him a last minute reprieve

offered him another chance

with new protocols and fingers crossed.

it may not last long

 he’s not in pain

and is purring again

so we’ll take it one encore at a time.

he and i were both equally surprised

olive took it all in stride.

 glenn still has no idea how big he really is

the lumbering giant

thinks he’s a kitten

knocking over everything in his way

he’s lived at least 3 lives since i’ve known him

that means 6ish still to go

and he’s still not ready to leave the stage for good, just yet.

“the encore is the short piece after the program has finished,

where the performer brings out something the audience doesn’t expect.”

-hillary hahn

 

 

our last day.

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we spent our last day together

glenn frey the cat, not the rocker

olive the cat, not the oil

and me.

glenn has taken a turn for the worse

and is quickly slowing down

resting in his favorite place

with olive refusing to leave his side

the three of us

sit in the quiet

just breathing

looking out at the signs

of the seasons changing

taking in the breezes.

i think back to his multiple rescues

his funny, crazy ways

his very loud voice

how i often spelled his name wrong

how he acted tough at first

but was really such a gentle giant

how he tried to camouflage himself in the vines and flowers

how he welcomed another rescue, tiny olive

into our little family.

in the morning

there will be

just two of us left

when we return to this room

as we say farewell

to our sweet friend, glenn frey.

even the flowers are sad.

everyone should have a chance to be a kid.

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Solving Kids’ Cancer’s Junior Ambassadors are a group of 6-16 year olds whose philanthropic efforts help create new and more effective treatments for children with the most challenging childhood cancers. They deserve to be in the spotlight for their commitments and passions to bring change to the childhood cancer community. Throughout the month of April, we are proud to introduce you all to this inspirational group of future leaders.

Meet Jr. Ambassador, Finn Kennedy. (My niece, who never had the chance to meet her brother/my nephew, Hazen, who passed away from pediatric cancer before she was born.)

What do you want to do when you grow up?
” I want to be a lawyer because the world needs good lawyers.”

Why did you decide to become a Jr. Ambassador for Solving Kids’ Cancer?
“Because I feel like everyone should have a chance to be a kid, have fun and change the world and I want to help sick kids to have that.”

What do you want your efforts to do?
” I want this money to go to researchers who try to invent medicines using expensive technology.”

What do you think we can all do for children that are fighting cancer?
” We can encourage them to stay happy. We should work hard and do our best to let people know that there are children who really need help.”

https://solvingkidscancer.org

“the measure of a life, after all, is not its duration, but its donation.”

-corrie ten boom

 

sugar skulls.

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today our kinders

learned  a beautiful lesson

about a lovely tradition

honoring those who we have loved and lost

and now continue to remember

on this very special holiday each year

and onward.

“the core belief of the Day of the Dead is so poetic and simple: as long as we remember those who have passed away, as long as we tell their stories, sing their songs, tell their jokes, cook their favorite meals, then they are with us, around us, and in our hearts.

-jorge r. guiterrez

The Art of the Book of Life, Introduction 
(Dia de los Muertos – Day of the Dead)

this post is dedicated to little hazen

forever 5

 who left us on this day

much loved

 lost much too soon

and always remembered.

extraordinary.

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‘bad things do happen in the world,

like war, natural disasters, disease. 

but out of those situations always arise

stories of ordinary people doing extraordinary things.’

-daryn kagan

for all who suffer as a result of the disasters

and

for all who arise to do extraordinary things to help. 

 

 

 

image credit: REUTERS/Adrees Latif- East Texas

 

don’t forget.

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what a lovely coincidence

that on this day

as i continue on my city parks journey

and drive through a neighborhood

i am lost

until

i come to the intersection of

pamela and patricia

the names of

my two sisters

one still with us

 one gone forever

and today –

her birthday

i look ahead to find

they’ve led me

to the beautiful park right in front of me.

“don’t forget to leave your handprints on the ones you love

and your footprints around the neighborhood.”
― lisa c. miller

for irish katie –

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for irish katie who loved the world

and

left way too early

and

for her daughter rachel

who inspired 

the happy nods of her mother’s head

and

who carries on

under the beautiful light

of her mother’s smile.


“death leaves a heartache no one can heal,

love leaves a memory no one can steal.”

-from an irish headstone

– and for all of those who have loved and lost someone dear to them

county donegal, ireland